a gal feels lucky when she gets a partner who loves him alot take care of him like his princess n make him feellike achild :) <3
but what u will say if he keeps a KARVACHAUTH fast 4 u
no words naa
dat was d same i felt dat my luc my prince my soulmate rishu kept dis for me jost to bring smile on my face
love u alot <3
Friday, October 29, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
23rd october ,2010
hii diary ,
its around 3 am
n i m thinking abt my bro
pehli baar apne aapko sambhalne mein itni mushkil hu rhi hai mujhe apne aap se hi nafrat hu rhi hai
y is my bro suffering my deeds
hmmm galtiya maine ki hai apni lif e mein usne nhi toh usse iss baat ko saja kyun
jo kehna hai karna hai mere saath kro naa i can face it anything
but i cant let it upon on my bro galti meri hai toh restrictions mujh par lgao jitni lgani hai lga lo ekdum akela kar du mujhe seh lungi woh bhi mein par mujhe uski taklif ka karan kyun bnaya jaa rha hai nhi sahen kar sakti mein ye
i really hate myself god aap yhi chahte hu naa ki mein apne aapse nafrat karne lgo see u got successful i m hatin myself
its around 3 am
n i m thinking abt my bro
pehli baar apne aapko sambhalne mein itni mushkil hu rhi hai mujhe apne aap se hi nafrat hu rhi hai
y is my bro suffering my deeds
hmmm galtiya maine ki hai apni lif e mein usne nhi toh usse iss baat ko saja kyun
jo kehna hai karna hai mere saath kro naa i can face it anything
but i cant let it upon on my bro galti meri hai toh restrictions mujh par lgao jitni lgani hai lga lo ekdum akela kar du mujhe seh lungi woh bhi mein par mujhe uski taklif ka karan kyun bnaya jaa rha hai nhi sahen kar sakti mein ye
i really hate myself god aap yhi chahte hu naa ki mein apne aapse nafrat karne lgo see u got successful i m hatin myself
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
why my luv loved me
Why I love u…………
U r d most special person in my life. We haven’t met till now den too we r able to share each and everything with each other. The bond of trust between us has grew to such level that is not possible normally. The understanding level we have for each other is really somethong that I cant express in words.
It was 18th of july,2010 when I rreceived a friend request from a girl wid blue coloured eyes picture as her profile pic on fb. We didn’t knew each other but seeing the fact she was from school I accepted the friendship but I also asked her that do she know me , if no then why did she sent a friend request… she directly answered me that she didn’t knew me but seeing something common such as we were from same school, secondly we had many mutual friends in our list and den finally d best reason was that she told that we share our birthday on the same day.. her simplicity to answer made me realize that she is a girl who is rally innocent enough that in a single talk she is talking so openly… previous to this she also proved lucky to me and I had already told her that how she do proved to be my lucky charm…
Earlier her formal language usage made me think that we wud be just fb frnds. The words such as aap, thanks, sorry and so onjust was too formal.. I did requested her to stop dis and she agreed for it at once.
On 23rd july I think it was her exam of architecture.. I do remember dis date as dis was d day when my fathers birthday was dere.. I asked hw her paper was.. her answer dat the paper was nt so gud made me feel that she was upset and being a friend for a very short time I cudnt saw her in a sad mood.. I tried to make her feel good and finally I succeeded. This normally doesnot happens with me that ki mai kisi ko smjhau aur wo smjh jaye but she was in a few girls jise thodi thodi baat meri smjh mei aayi atleast… I was really happy dat ki mai jo bolna chahta tha she understud easily…
A few days later I was very upset due to some personal problems asuch as my mom went through an operation and I was supposed to leave d city soon.. she was d girl who realized that I was upset and asked me nt to worry.. I expressed all d things which I was undergoing.. it really gave me a relaxing feeling.. first time I think I shared my thoughts so openly wid anyone.. It seemed dat day that I was suffocating inside but jab maine use sab kuch bol diya uske baad I felt relaxed aur usne bahut ache se mjhe smjhaya which lifted my confidence.. I really felt energized..it seemed dat koi mjhe ab smjha sakta hai and I can share my thoughts..
In a few days mjhe ye hi smjh aa gaya tha ki ye ladki bahut hi sensitive hai … choti choti baton pe naraaj ho jati hai aur fir saara gussa khud pe hi utarti hai….
She was similar to me in many aspects….. mere jaisa hi jiddipan puri tarah se andar….Ladai hui to gussa khane pe hi utarne wala hai… fir chahe kuch bhi ho jaye fark nhi padne wala hai chahe tbyat kharab ho khud ki ya na ho….
I don’t know still kaise us ladki ko mjhpe itna jaada trust ho gaya tha kuch hi din mei widout even meeting me dat she became so close frnd of mine…. Usne mjhse pehli baar msg krke ed din kaha tha ki-“ my frnd I need ur help”. I really felt ki she is too alone…. And I have to help her out to d maximum extent I can by supporting her morally…
Maine bahut use smjhaya and jis situation mei wo thi usme use smjhana mushkill tha but den too she understud me and realized dat wat I meant to say to her,…..
Dis girl was upset to a very very high level…. Dheere dheere I don’t know ki hw her trust increased on me and she started sharing things wid me… aur sabse important baat ye thi ki I was able to know wat she is undergoing thru and uske mind me kya thoughts hai…I cud read her mind easily aur aaj tak mjhe iska answer nhi mila hai ki hw I can know her mind thoughts ..
I felt dat she needed a frnd and I was able to help her out….usne mjhse kaha ki she is depressed and it felt to me dat as if I am depressed…
Mjhe pta hai ki depression ka matlab kya hota hai as I too underwent dat depression… aur mai kisi bhi kimat pe apni frnd ko depression me nhi jaane dena chahta tha…. Uske andar mjhe khud ki image dikh rhi thi as if she is my duplicate copy jo apni jindagi se haar maan rhi thi dheere dheere….
Dheere dheere humari dosti aage badhti gayi… mjhe agar thoda sa bhi problem hoti thi to she tried to solve it by giving all d suggestions and finally she was d one who brought smile on my face by any means… kbhi mai use gussa hota tha ki she don’t care of herself to kbhi kbhi meri sweet frnd mjhse gussa ho jati thi because of her care..
Bahut log aaye aur gaye but no one was able to bring a smile in times of trouble to me but something special was dere in her which made her stand out of d crowd for me……. Dheere dheere karke she started trusting me more dan anything in her words it was blindfolded trust…. Kuch bhi ho baat wo mjhse jarur share krti thi and I tried to give answer to her if possible buta kabhi de paaya aur kbhi nhi but she just smiled showing she is satisfied… kbhi bhi mjhse ye nhi kaha ki u r irritating me…..
Kahin na kahin use bhi bahut dhoke mile the apne close ones se aur mjhe firr se lga ki she is d gal jiski story similar hai mjhse…. Wo bhi tut chuki thi aur mai bhi tut chukka tha but jaise taise khud ko smbhaal rha tha aur use mai aur tutne nhi dena chahta tha….
Meri thodi si tbyat kharab hone pe hi mjhe ache se smjhana wo bhi pyari si daant ke saath shayad hi kisi ne kiya ho life mei but she did it/…..
M jhe sirf ek hi darr tha ki kahin uska trust mai tod na du but she assured me dat she has trust ki aisa kbhi nhi hoga…. I too pray dis ki kbhi bhi aisa nhi ho…
Baat baat pe daantna aur shart rkh ke jaise bhi ye mjhse meri care krwa hi leti hai chahe wo rest krna ho dawai lena ho ya fir sone ki baat ho….. really aisi koi frnd ho to it seems dat u r special fr someone and really important…
Kbhi bhi meri fnrd apni koi bhi problem dusro se share nhi krti hai d reason fr it is ki dusre tensed ho jayenge.. itna care jo dusro k liye krta ho wo sach me bahut jaada acha insaan hota hai dil se… really a girl wid golden heart in her…..
Ye wo ladki hai jisne dusro k liye hamesha sacrifice kiye hai,,,,,,, humesha hi khud musibat me padi hai… to automatically heart me ek soft corner create ho jaata hai due to respect and love….
Ye wo insaan thi jisne apni zindagi ki saari sachai mjhe bina hesitate krte hue btayi.. ek ek sach jo koi ladki kbhi kisi ko nhibta skti hai…. Usne mjhe wo sab kuch bta diya just like an open buk she revealed herself to me… ab agar koi itna trust krta ho to wat u feel u know… u r on d top of world… mjhe shayad isse jaada caring understandsin aur straight forward nhi mila aur na hi mila skti hai.. jo bina bole ab bahut kuch smjh jaati hai wo thi meri frnd… aisi ladki ka saath kaun nhi nibhana chahega jo khud se jaada mjh par trust krti ho.... maine kuch bhi nhi kiya hai aaj tak iske liye den too she considers me an angel… I just hope dat I our relationship goes to dat extent which is d maximum limit a relation can go on…. Just hope dat nothing bad happens wid us and I will try nt to let her go away fronm me as she is d ponly one whom I got perfect fr me and if she walks away from me den nothing wud be left in my life….. I will be over completely over as now she is my life and luv,,,,,, love u dear…….. cant express anything more.. I think dis will give u some idea dat why I choosed u…………….
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
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